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She’s As Cold As Ice January 6, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — Jubilant Fields @ 3:07 pm

It would be an understatement to say that I’m not an overly emotional person.  All of those things that women cry about?  Not so much.  I didn’t cry at my wedding or when Bean and Dubs were born.  I know…it’s not very flattering.  I tend to refer to myself as “cold in the soul.”  That’s not to say that I don’t feel the impact of things personally.  I just tend to internalize them more than others.  When I’m sad, lonely, bored, frustrated, or angry, I handle my feelings in one very particular fashion…I eat.  I’m a major emotional eater.

Seriously, it’s ridiculous.  All of these people who say, “I was so upset that I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t do anything?”  Wow.  I can’t even understand that.  I have the exact opposite problem.  I pig out and take a nap.  I sort of wish I had it the other way around.  I’d probably be 100 pounds lighter if I didn’t try to comfort myself with food.  I believe it was on an episode of Friends where Phoebe’s therapist boyfriend said to Monica, “Remember, they’re just food.  They’re not love.”  Maybe I’m Monica.  (Wait, no…she was a clean freak.  Definitely not Monica.)

I say all of that to say this:  yesterday was horrendous.  We had a pretty frustrating day at work.  That part I can handle.  Pretty much every day of work is frustrating when you work in the Business Office.  It’s not really all that much fun to work with money.  It’s kind of like working the lost luggage counter at the airport…you don’t often have a great day.  However, after work, I had to participate in a merger negotiation for my Finance class.  It was a BEAR.  Our class was divided into two groups of eight people, and we had to negotiate a merger between two organic food providers.  I’ve spent well over 20 hours over the past week getting my part ready…and there were seven other people working on other parts of it.  Ridiculous.  Altogether, we figured we’d put in about 160 hours of work over the week.  Last night’s negotiations, which were intended to last about two hours, ended up taking four hours.  It was just painful.  The professor warned us that anything over two hours would be rough, and she was right.  It was extremely stressful and tense.  About midway through we took a ten minute break.  I was super stressed out and frustrated and wanted to eat…so I walked around the building.  That’s a milestone for me.

I figured people don’t really want to hear every detail about every morsel I put in my mouth during the day, so I’m giving up on that.  Instead, I thought I’d just share wonderful recipes that I find as I meander my way to a healthier lifestyle.  One of my new favorite websites is Green Lite Bites.  The site is authored by a woman with two kids and a picky eater for a husband.  Two peas in a pod, she and I.  Yesterday morning, I made her Whole Wheat Blueberry Pancake Waffles.  Holy jeez, they were amazing.  I did make a few substitutions (regular whole wheat flour, skim milk, turbinado for the honey, and nonfat yogurt for the applesauce).  Honestly, they weren’t just good healthy waffles…they were good waffles, period.  That’s a win.

So, three days down, and still good to go!  I’m already thinking about Sunday, though.  I’ve decided to allow myself one “cheat day” each week.  I won’t go nuts those days, but if I want to have Arby’s, I’ll have it.  If I want to eat some bacon for breakfast, I’ll have a little.  I’ve learned from a bit of healthy eating in the past that I tend to stick with it better if I don’t deprive myself entirely.  After all, six days of healthy eating a week is better than none, which is what I was doing!


Day Two, Done! January 5, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — Jubilant Fields @ 4:28 pm

Well, it’s certainly not a major milestone or anything, but day two of my diet is in the books.  I had a pretty good day, I think.  Here’s how the day went:


Rise and Shine

5:30 AM.  That’s a big deal for me.  I love to sleep.



  • Chocolate chip cookie dough baked oatmeal, which I adapted from the recipe you can find here.  I substituted non-fat yogurt for the applesauce, because in the past, I thought the applesauce added a funky taste.  I actually only made half of the recipe, and baked it in a half-cup ramekin.  I didn’t use any oil, and for the half recipe, I used one teaspoon of mini chocolate chips.  Mini chocolate chips have 25 calories and 1.5 grams of fat for a teaspoon…and it’s worth it. 🙂
  • A hard boiled egg
  • One cup of skim milk
  • One cup of coffee with light creamer


Mid-morning snack

Granola bar



  • The other half of my Beach Club unwich from the day before.  I seriously adore this sandwich.  I don’t even miss the bread.  I think if I put avocado spread on just about anything, though, I’d love it.
  • One serving of Thinny Chips


Afternoon snack




  • Two slow cooker buffalo chicken breast sammies (I’ll get to these in a bit)
  • Pretzels
  • Half a cup of skim milk


Evening snack

A cup of light orange juice.  I bought it because it only had 40 calories per cup, compared to 100 (or more) for regular orange juice.  Big mistake.  I hated it.  It didn’t taste like orange juice.  It tasted like Sunny D, which I really don’t like.  I think I’d rather have half a cup of the real thing.


Daily water consumption

Half a gallon.  I actually was really thirsty shortly before bed (maybe I’m starting to crave water, like I’ve heard tales about), but I was afraid I’d have to get up a million times during the night, so I abstained. 🙂



About 10:00 PM.  One thing I’ll say for getting up early…you’re ready for bed early, too. 🙂  Tonight will likely be a different story, because it’s a class night, and we have a super high-stress merger negotiation, so I’ll probably be pretty high strung by the time I get home and will have to wind down for awhile.


With dinner, I was going to cook some green beans, but we had to head off to church so we were in a rush.  I’m also coming down with a nasty chest cold, so I felt like making things as simple as possible, and everything else was all ready (I know…excuses, excuses!)  The buffalo chicken sammies were AMAZING.  It’s a recipe (or really, a method), that my sister taught me.  We put a pound and a half of chicken breast tenderloins in the crock pot, sprinkled on half a packet of dry ranch dressing mix (which really doesn’t have much in it in its dry state), and then poured on 3/4 cup of mild wing sauce.  I cooked them on low for about 9 hours or so.  By the time I got home, I didn’t even have to shred the chicken…it literally fell apart as I stirred it.  We then ate it on light hot dog buns.  I calculated each sammie to be 190 calores, including the bun.  It made a TON, too.  I had two sammies, The Hubs had two, and Bean had one.  We still had about half of the chicken left.  Leftovers for The Hubs!


So that’s day two in a nutshell.  I’ve gotta say, even though I haven’t started exercising, I’m already feeling like I have more energy.  There’s certainly more pep in my step.  I can tell I’m walking faster, and I don’t feel as run down at the end of the day.  Though my diet certainly isn’t the model of what a perfectly healthy lifestyle would ideally be, it’s certainly VASTLY improved from the “norm” for me.  I’m trying to get going slowly.  If I can find ways to incorporate tastes that I enjoy into my healthier diet, then perhaps I’ll be more prone to stick with it.


It’s a New Year January 4, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — Jubilant Fields @ 5:59 pm

Every year, I set a New Year’s resolution.  It’s usually to lose weight.  Every year, I break the resolution on or around January 2nd.  Although I’m known for my tenacity (read: bullheadedness), I’m not exactly known for my willpower.  This year, I took a cue from a friend and made a less specific resolution – yet it’s one that could (and should) potentially carry over into numerous aspects of my life.


My resolution for 2012 is to be more disciplined.  Yes, this includes the requisite better eating habits, but it encapsulates so many other things as well.  If I truly work to become more disciplined, I should see improvements in a number of areas:

  • Productivity at work: this isn’t really an issue as much as other things, but there’s always room for improvement
  • Home tidiness: this is truly my biggest weakness in life – even more so than food.  I hate, and I do mean HATE, to clean.  I love a clean house…hate getting it that way.
  • Schoolwork: I’m four months away from being finished with my MBA (yay!), but I’m a serious dawdler when it comes to getting my work done.  I get good grades (4.0 thus far, yeah, baby!), but all too often I spend my lunch break on the day of class trying to get the last of my coursework done.  That’s not so responsible.
  • Marriage strengthening: The Hubs is truly my best friend, but ever since I’ve been in grad school, our relationship has suffered from a serious lack of TLC.  This is not to say we argue frequently or anything like that (we don’t), but with everything else going on, we find ourselves and our relationship getting shuffled to the back burner quite a bit.
  • Parenting:  My children are truly Godsends.  They are well-adjusted, respectful (most of the time) and cheerful.  I really do need to be better about carving out time to spend with them.
  • Sleep:  Too many nights a week, I go to bed around midnight, and then find myself sleeping in until the LAST POSSIBLE minute, which (of course) leads to rushing around trying to get to work on time.
  • Eating habits: yup.


I know that once I’m done with school in May, I’ll have a lot more time to devote to some of these things, but they’re all deserving of my attention now.  I’m taking it little by little.  Last night, after I got home from class, I read for a little while.  I get home from class somewhere between 9:30 and 10:00 two nights a week, and I just can’t go to bed after that.  My mind is moving a million miles per hour, so I have to read or watch TV, or pick up around the house to turn it off before bed.  So, anyway…last night, I read until about 10:30, and then I went to bed.  I woke up at 5:30.  Ordinarily, I would roll back over and try to get more sleep, but this morning, I pushed myself out from under the covers and started my day.  I was able to make myself a nice, healthy breakfast and enjoy a cup of coffee and some time to myself before the kids got up.  It was refreshing.


By far, the area I’m working hardest to cultivate more discipline in right now is my diet.  Here’s what I looked like on Christmas.



Yes, that’s me checking out my brother’s 3D boxers.  Don’t judge…my family’s weird like that.  I digress…


I’m not comfortable with saying how much I weigh right now.  Maybe after I’ve lost a few (dozen) pounds, I will be.  Maybe I won’t.  Suffice it to say that I’ve gained about 150 pounds since I met my husband.  That’s not a typo.  I feel like absolute garbage all of the time, can barely breathe after walking up a flight of stairs, and feel a LOT of embarrassment any time I have to get down onto (or up from) the floor.  I’ve decided to start with eating right, and then gradually add in exercise.  I have a horribly bad knee (I broke my kneecap about 13 years ago), and it’s been giving me a lot of grief lately (no doubt from my weight putting too much strain on it).  After I drop some weight (not much, just a start), I plan to get going on the exercising as well.  Slowly, but surely.


My sister is my source of inspiration.  A “fluffy” woman like myself, she has lost 55 pounds in the last few months.  I want to be like her.  She, in turn, took her inspiration from our youngest brother (the owner of the fancy underpants above).  He recently participated in the Ironman World Championships in Kona, Hawaii, and was a featured inspirational athlete.  My sister said, “I figure if he can swim, bike and run for 12 hours straight, then I can do this.”  So can I.


Long story short(er), I figured I’d use this blog to help keep me accountable (even if no one reads it).  I’m also using the Lose It! app on my phone, which is wonderful.  If you’re looking to work on your weight, I highly recommend it.  It even has a barcode scanner on it that you can use.  You scan the barcode of items you’ve purchased, and it automatically populates with the calories, fat, etc. for the item.  It’s pretty great.


Yesterday was my first day of healthier eating.  I did really well.  I made myself a mock egg McMuffin using multigrain sandwich thins, Canadian bacon, Egg Beaters, and half a slice of cheese for breakfast.  I had some coffee, too, because I’d have been worthless without it.  For lunch, I had half a Beach Club Unwich from Jimmy John’s, a serving of Thinny Chips, and half a Diet Mountain Dew.  For dinner, I had some Lean Gourmet microwaveable pizza snackers, pretzels, and raw carrots (maybe not the best choice on earth, but it was a class night, so I went with something fast).  For morning snack, I had a granola bar, and for afternoon snack, I had a banana.  I drank the other half of my Diet Mountain Dew during class to keep me perky. 🙂  I also drank half a gallon of water, so my new hobby is walking back and forth from my office to the bathroom.


So far, so good.  I have a LONG way to go, but on the plus side, I didn’t even think about cheating.  It’s almost lunchtime on day 2, and I’m still feeling pretty good.  According to Lose It!, if I lose 2 pounds a week, I should meet my goal weight by June 13, 2013.  Only 525 (or so) good days to go…hehe! 🙂